Fear

What hurts is not that you chose her but that you gave me up so easily.

What hurts is that you can’t give me an answer as to why.

What hurts is that I wasn’t good enough.

What hurts is that I’ve lost my best friend.

What hurts is knowing that you never loved me as much as I loved you.

What hurts is knowing that I will get over you but it might take a while.

What hurts is that you didn’t tell me when it all first started.

What hurts is that the lies continued until the very end.

What hurts is that we didn’t get to say goodbye.

What hurts is that my biggest fear of being alone and unloved has never hurt as much as it does now.

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10 thoughts on “Fear

  1. how come all of us have the same questions…i guess its a phase you go through..only time will heal. besides, not all questions have answers and finding answers that do not exist is futile.Cheer up!

  2. Awww scrumps, chin up. I had pretty much the same thing happen to me with an ex. As soon as he found a steady gf, I was pretty much ditched. He picked a stupid fight with me and convenienty cut off all contact with me. It took me the best part of a year to get over that, he was my first boyfriend and we were best friends for so many years after, so I never really pictured a future without him in it. So it's not easy, but eventually I just realised he's not the person I thought he was, not the person I had idealised in my mind. And with that realisation comes the knowledge that you can move on, that it's simply not worth tearing yourself up about someone who doesn't deserve such a great depth of feeling. Hope it works out…

  3. I So know how this feels… And I haven't gotten over it yet…I guess, if some things are not meant to be, then we have to wait for what's right…Things should get better….take care..*hugs*

  4. I won't say it'll only last till you find someone new to take his place, because I know that might take time (personal experience!)But what I can truthfully say is, that unless you make an effort to come to terms with it, it will keep hurting. Time will heal, but remember after a while that you deserve more out of life than to keep wondering what went wrong.I'm sure losing the friendship hurts most of all. We've all been there. Huggggg!

  5. Awwww 😦 Hugs. Just read thru all this. I've been there, the picking her over me, the subtle untruths, camouflage . It isn't easy but it will get better in time.I found someone else, and I wouldn't trade him for the world. You will too.Chin up.

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