I spent my time in the shower this morning crying. I don’t even know why. Well I guess I kind of do. Why did God put me through such heartbreak? Like what did I do that he thought that I needed that lesson? I have been thinking a lot about what happened with me and O. And everything I felt just feels so worthless. What a waste of 4 years of my life.
I have been on some dates with someone. I think he likes me. But I am so scared to give myself up to that again. He appears to be the complete opposite of O. But then I was such bad judge of character before, what says I won’t be again.
How can someone enjoy their own company and still feel lonely?
Why do I overthink things?